Was I looking for a sign?

The opening through the clouds unleashed rays of sun, lighting the path between heaven and earth. Those in heaven could reach down and touch those on earth. I need to believe that was you.

Great ideas of what I could do today...

Instead, my thoughts on what was constantly overshadowed activites. Needless to say, they was a lot of tearing up. I guess I have to be happy for the heaven we had for a few years. I think I know what hell is. Hell is the lack of who loves you; of no possibility of being together; it's being alone with ideas of what should have been but will not be; it's a mental torture. We were a good party of 2 I am trying to complete what we started, But I'm not taking on the Bronco or the boat. They are beyond my skill and my interest. I'll try to do everyhting, Mike, but those are going.
I sat outside at dusk just like we would do, drink beer and watch the sunset. Where awere you? Can I come?

Back in TN

Just returned from San Fran, CA. I have to periodically travel to the Northeast or West Coast to get a refreshed sense of sanity. I have given much thought since living in  mid-Tn why I have to travel out of this area to find some semblance of what I consider "normal" circumstances. I just don't get how I cannot find a community or place of belonging here. I mention this to Kevin, and typical of Kevin, there is insight. Community, where I'm from and where I go for sanity, is defined by an address, a neighborhood, a town. With that in common, there may be other shared interests: the way I worship, my political views, my hobbies. Kev suggested that community in mid-Tn is actually built on the interests: the church attended, the political view. Address and neighborhood just does not seem to matter. I wonder if it matters with kids in school. Does the school create a community or are there divisions there based on special intersts as well. Most curious...